TTC Round One

This will be brief but I don't want to leave my bloggies hanging. This is not my month! AF hasn't reared her ugly head yet but I am stuck in PMS land gripping several negative pregnancy tests in each hand. Can't say I'm not disappointed but I am "ok" with it this month. I suppose it was only the first round of TTC. I just can't stand wondering if it will happen again. Since it took me 3 years to get pregnant with Nathan I get a little worried-- I don't have three years! I'm no spring chicken anymore!!!

Getting close!

I am officially 10 dpo (days past ovulation for my readers that don't suck themselves into enough online blogs to know the lingo lol). This means that if a little Herman baby hasn't buried into my uterus by now then I am out of the running for the month.

I am trying not to symptom spot, and I was doing really well until I realized I have been pretty queasy that past few days. Last night I almost lost my dinner. I am going to hope that's a good sign and not just a result of geocaching behind the sewage treatment plant!!! Today my mouth has been watering at a disgusting rate. Hate to admit it but I am getting REALLY hopeful. I think I am going to test this Saturday. It's still pretty early, but I am impatient and maybe, just maybe, I will get a faint positive. I really hate keeping this a secret from the rest of the world, and my family. But I really don't want to hear everybody's opinions on why I shouldn't be doing this again. I just want a houseful of babies!

Only one more day to make it through before I hopefully have a joyful answer. I am on pins and needles. I do wonder if the bundle of nerves I have become isn't to blame for my queasy stomach though. I HATE this!!!

Time ticks on

I realized that if this is "the month" and all of my baby making efforts were not in vain, I would have conceived on Memorial Day (fitting in name) and will be able to find out just before Father's Day. What a gift that would be! How I would just LOVE to wrap up a positive EPT and give it to David. However, the likelihood of that happening feels so far off that I am not even going to let myself get excited. I have decided that, at least for now, I am not going to allow myself to get consumed by this. If it does not happen this cycle then I will just focus on losing some much needed weight.

David and I have picked a girl's name. One that he actually liked too! I didn't think it was possible to suggest a name that he actually agreed was nice. We're going to keep it a secret- but I promise it is so fitting! The only hint that I will give you is that like Nathan and Noah, it also starts with an N.

I am waaaaayyyyy too anxious for the next ten days to go by. I already have 3 EPTs just screaming my name. I even splurged on the ones that let you test 6 days early. Waiting until a missed period is for chumps! Now, I just have to survive until then. I am already symptom spotting. So far all I've had was a few spells of nausea... but that could just be from lack of sleep and nerves combined.