I had my 6 week postpartum appointment yesterday and I will start with the good news because I am in a kind of good mood today. He said my scar looks great, I appear to be healing up well (we will get to this in the bad news section). I can start exercising again, which is great because my Zumba kit came in the mail this morning and my sister and I are anxious to get started on it. But the very best news is when we can try again for another baby!
Apparently, we had a miscommunication which I understood to mean I had to wait a year to TTC again. I guess after a C-section he recommends 18 months between babies. Not 18 months to try again which was what I thought, but 18months between labors. So, I only need to wait 9 months from my last c-section before we can try again. And we already have almost 2 months behind us. So about 7 more months and we can get crackin' in the baby making department. It will be bittersweet but I am losing time! I know it could be worse but I wanted all my kids before I turned 28 and at this rate that will be impossible. He also said that next time I will be "red-flagged" which means more visits and we will be more pro-active to include progesterone shots and precautionary steroid shots for the baby's lungs. I am glad to hear that. I really felt like nobody was listening to me this last pregnancy when I knew something wasn't right. I got written off as a paranoid preggo in my opinion. That, or that things were so hopeless that "why bother with this one?" I am just excited to put this chapter of my life behind me and get on with happier things.
Which leads me to the bad news. Apparently when it rains it pours. After my surgery I bled for about 4 weeks then it tapered down for a week to the normal yellow color (TMI I know!! lol). Then after about 4 of 5 days of that I started getting period like cramps followed by what I assumed to be my period. And it was no joke! I bled harder this period than I did after having either of the boys. And this "period" has been going on for about 10 days now. He said this is not normal, doesn't necessarily indicate a problem but if the bleeding does not soon (completely stop, no spotting or anything) I will need to have a hysteroscopy done, possibly followed by a D&C. He thinks that because of my abruption, when it pulled away it left behind microscopic placental cells that just keep bleeding and bleeding and he will need to go in and remove them.
Just what I want, more surgery....
But, like I said, it could be so much worse and I will just focus on that --versus how screwed I feel I got in this whole scenario. I found two Bible verses this morning though that spoke to me and gave me a much needed attitude adjustment:
We often suffer , but are never crushed . Even when we don't know what
to do , we never give up . In times of trouble , God is with us , and when we
are knocked down , we get up again.Corinthians 4 : 8-92
Be Patient and trust the Lord . Don't let it
bother you when all goes well for those who do sinful things.Psalm 37:7
Lastly, I was on the internet yesterday and I came across a song purely by chance. I just hit play on it and went back to what I was doing, only half listening to it. Imagine my surprise when I heard the following lyrics. Normally this would put me into such a funk, but it put a smile on my face and has really changed my attitude. Kind of like a little sign from the Lord (especially considering the weird chance of me finding the song the way I did).
Hello, Goodbye
Michael W. Smith
Where's the Navigator of your destiny?
Where is the Dealer of this hand?
Who can explain life and its brevity
'Cause there is nothing here that I can understand
You and I have barely met
And I just don't want to let go of you yet
Chorus:
Noah, hello, goodbye
I will see you on the other side
Noah, sweet child of mine
I will see you on the other side
And so I hold your tiny hand in mine
For the hardest thing I've ever had to face
Heaven calls for you before it calls for me
When you get there, save me a place
A place where I can share your smile
And I can hold you for more than just a while
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Upxwtz32yVE
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