5+4

Well, I'm still pregnant and there are still no problems. I don't know if I really believe it. This is the week where things started to go sour with Noah so I am in a constant worry that I will find myself spotting again and we'll repeat history. I am doing my best to keep my head up but the gloomy "what ifs" always surface eventually.

I have such minimal symptoms that it's almost like I'm not even pregnant. I don't even know how to deal with this since in my first two pregnancies I puked and puked and was sick as a dog. Other than a few bouts of queasiness I have felt fine! I feel like this one is a girl. Obviously the completely different symptoms makes me feel that way but also because a few weeks ago Nathan told me completely out of the blue that "his baby sister would be coming soon". Creepy, right? Well, now he is adamant that he get a sister. I told him that it could be a boy and he was not happy about it. He is refusing to believe it. So, I am hoping for his sake that he gets his sister. As for me, I don't care either way. I just want happy and HEALTHY!

So, just for fun, I figured I would try and keep up with these little surveys every week. I am gonna shoot for Fridays since that's my day off from class, and also the start of my new weeks of pregnancy.

How far along?  5 weeks, 4 days
How big is baby? The size of an Appleseed

What's baby doing this week?  Starting to form major organs (heart, kidney, liver, stomach) and systems (nervous, circulatory and digestive)

Total weight gain/loss?  Nothing yet

Symptoms? VERY occasional nausea, exhaustion, cramps,backache and my left boob hurts if I push on it really hard.
Maternity clothes?  A little too soon although if this bloating keeps up I will be in maternity clothes before I know it! There soon will be no hiding it (as if I would want to!!)
Stretch marks? Just the ones from the last couple of times.
Sleep?  What's that? I have been working my tail off and averaging 6 hours of sleep a night. It's downright miserable. BUT, don't worry bloggies, I only have 6 days left at work and then I am going to be a lady of scholarly leisure the rest of my pregnancy.
Best moment of the week?  Nathan was having a fit about how the baby HAD to be a sister. I told him that we didn't get to pick and tried to encourage him to believe that a boy would be just as good. He then told me that he already had a brother and now he wants a sister too. Melted my heart that he remembers his baby brother.
Food cravings: Ice cream which is so bizarre. I don't even like ice cream.

Movement? Still too early 
Gender? Like I said earlier, thinking it's a girl
Labor signs? Ugh! Don't even say that!!
Belly button in/out? Innie

What I miss: Being able to drink beer at the end of a long day at work.
What I am looking forward to: Our first ultrasound on September 7th

Milestones: Made it through the day that I first started bleeding in my last pregnancy. Thank you Jesus! Now to keep it that way!!!

And now for the baby belly picture! And I know I cheated with this week's. This was actually from a couple days ago but my belly looks about the same and there is no way I am getting off the couch to go take another one. Next week I promise to not be so lazy!!!!

Cooking Herman Baby number 3

So...now that my shock is wearing off (somewhat) I can blog with a straight-ish mind.

Anybody that follows me on Facebook knows I have been sick lately. And whatever bug I'm fighting perfectly covered up all my symptoms of pregnancy. I figured the exhaustion was caused by being run down and working so much (and so on so forth). It wasn't until I was standing in Sunday morning church that I thought "maybe" I could be pregnant. I kept getting hot flashes followed by waves of nausea that I have only experienced two other times in my life. Then I nearly passed out when I was leaving the church.

So Nate and I shot down to the Copps Food Market where pregnancy tests were half off (thank you God!) and I figured that I'd pick one up because they were so cheap. Finished up my grocery shopping, went home and put the groceries away then decided to pee on a stick. I instantly got a positive. Thinking that I HAD to be seeing things I called my sister to come confirm the two pink lines. She saw it, I freaked out and then did it two more times. Same story.

It almost killed me waiting to talk to David. I shot him a picture message with the pregnancy test and "Congratulations Daddy" written under it in case he didn't realize what he was looking at. This is the second time that I have gotten a positive pregnancy test while he was gone and he's given me a heart attack waiting to tell him. I don't have the patience for this! He finally called me back about ten hours later sounding dually shocked.  We haven't had much time to talk about it but he sounds happy.

I immediately put in my two weeks notice at work. I am NOT taking any chances. So, my last day of work will be on Sept 2, and my first ultrasound will be on Sept 7th. Until then I will just take this one day at a time. I am already running to the bathroom every ten seconds expecting to be bleeding, or trying not to pick anything up. I have to keep stepping back and telling myself that this is NOT my last pregnancy. Until I hear otherwise I can do things like wash the dishes and pick up toys.

I am cramping quite a bit, but I have to remind myself that part is normal. I'm also tired- but not as bad as in my first two pregnancies. The nausea seems to have kicked in earlier than normal though. Haven't puked yet but I am wondering if this is a sign of a long road ahead of me. Either way I don't care. Bring it on if it means a big, healthy, full-term baby.

ssshhh....it's a secret

Well it happened. Right when we were least expecting it. I ovulated on the one year anniversary of Noah's death, to the date. This is going to be a long and scary road! It's a secret for now so nobody say anything about it on Facebook. We are waiting until my 6 week ultrasound before we announce it to anyone. We are due on April 26th.

Please pray for my sanity, my nerves but most importantly a LONG and BORING pregnancy and a healthy baby.

7 DPO

Back in the 2 week window. HATING THIS!

7 DPO and fingers crossed. Not feeling it again this month either. I am very tired but that likely has to do more with starting a new job than the fact that I got dinged on the head by the baby fairy.

I ovulated on the one year anniversary of losing my mucous plug with Noah, and ironically we BDd at the same vacation spot we were at when I had my first major bleed and got put on bedrest. It would be nice to resurrect that place somewhat and be pregnant for Noah's first birthday. I can't believe that it's less than a month away. Where did this year go???

So, we wait.....

TTC Round One

This will be brief but I don't want to leave my bloggies hanging. This is not my month! AF hasn't reared her ugly head yet but I am stuck in PMS land gripping several negative pregnancy tests in each hand. Can't say I'm not disappointed but I am "ok" with it this month. I suppose it was only the first round of TTC. I just can't stand wondering if it will happen again. Since it took me 3 years to get pregnant with Nathan I get a little worried-- I don't have three years! I'm no spring chicken anymore!!!

Getting close!

I am officially 10 dpo (days past ovulation for my readers that don't suck themselves into enough online blogs to know the lingo lol). This means that if a little Herman baby hasn't buried into my uterus by now then I am out of the running for the month.

I am trying not to symptom spot, and I was doing really well until I realized I have been pretty queasy that past few days. Last night I almost lost my dinner. I am going to hope that's a good sign and not just a result of geocaching behind the sewage treatment plant!!! Today my mouth has been watering at a disgusting rate. Hate to admit it but I am getting REALLY hopeful. I think I am going to test this Saturday. It's still pretty early, but I am impatient and maybe, just maybe, I will get a faint positive. I really hate keeping this a secret from the rest of the world, and my family. But I really don't want to hear everybody's opinions on why I shouldn't be doing this again. I just want a houseful of babies!

Only one more day to make it through before I hopefully have a joyful answer. I am on pins and needles. I do wonder if the bundle of nerves I have become isn't to blame for my queasy stomach though. I HATE this!!!

Time ticks on

I realized that if this is "the month" and all of my baby making efforts were not in vain, I would have conceived on Memorial Day (fitting in name) and will be able to find out just before Father's Day. What a gift that would be! How I would just LOVE to wrap up a positive EPT and give it to David. However, the likelihood of that happening feels so far off that I am not even going to let myself get excited. I have decided that, at least for now, I am not going to allow myself to get consumed by this. If it does not happen this cycle then I will just focus on losing some much needed weight.

David and I have picked a girl's name. One that he actually liked too! I didn't think it was possible to suggest a name that he actually agreed was nice. We're going to keep it a secret- but I promise it is so fitting! The only hint that I will give you is that like Nathan and Noah, it also starts with an N.

I am waaaaayyyyy too anxious for the next ten days to go by. I already have 3 EPTs just screaming my name. I even splurged on the ones that let you test 6 days early. Waiting until a missed period is for chumps! Now, I just have to survive until then. I am already symptom spotting. So far all I've had was a few spells of nausea... but that could just be from lack of sleep and nerves combined.